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V2 I Reunited with my Ex-Girlfriend on a Dating App Chapter 1

Just because I'm feeling nervous, doesn't mean it's love.

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Chapter 1: Just because I’m feeling nervous, doesn’t mean it’s love.

I’m so sleepy, I wish I could sleep forever. While sleeping, there’s no need to think about anything, and I don’t feel hungry. Even so, I attended my morning classes properly.

Usually, I’d be half-asleep during class, but today was different. In fact, it’s been like this recently.

As lunchtime gets closer, the drowsiness that’s been with me since morning gradually fades away. That doesn’t mean I’m getting more absorbed in the lessons, though. I might be more focused when I’m internally grumbling about how sleepy I am.

All of this is because of lunchtime.

Every time I think about meeting Kokoro-san (Hatsune Kokoro), the words and expressions from that time flashback in my mind.

I can hear the notification sound of LINE in my ears.

But it’s not a new message; it’s a memory sound from that time.

What’s with these memory sounds?

If I keep feeling this nervous every day, I might not grasp the class content, do terribly on tests, and even fail my courses.

I need to deal with this as soon as possible.

I know that, but I don’t know how.

Actually, I do know. There’s a quick and sure way to confirm the real intention behind those words.

It’s simple.

Just ask the person directly.

That will solve everything.

I head towards the cafeteria, but my steps are slow.

I’m overtaken by other students, but I don’t try to walk faster.

Because if I walk fast, I’ll reach the cafeteria sooner.

And if I do, Kokoro-san (Hatsune Kokoro) will be waiting, increasing the time I feel nervous.

The conclusion to just ask her came to me right after receiving those words, as soon as I got home that day.

But it’s been a week since then, and even though there have been four opportunities to have lunch with Kokoro-san (Hatsune Kokoro), I still haven’t asked.

Because it’s embarrassing…

Asking something like “Do you like me?” feels creepy, and asking “Is it just as friends?” seems obvious, and I fear she might think I’m embarrassing myself.

So, how should I ask… As I ponder this, I arrive at the cafeteria.

Looking inside, despite the bustling crowd of students, there’s one unusually empty spot.

My gaze naturally drifts to that place, and there, in the center, is an angel. Our eyes meet.

She spots me and waves, turning a bit red. At first, she just showed her palm, but now… she’s waving. So cute.

Before going to Kokoro-san (Hatsune Kokoro), I get some omelet rice.

“Hello, Kokoro-san (Hatsune Kokoro).”

“Hello,” she responds.

We exchange our usual greetings, and I sit across from her.

About the seating, it’s usually hard to hear each other across the noisy cafeteria table, especially since Kokoro-san (Hatsune Kokoro) speaks softly. We used to sit next to each other more often.

But since that day, I’ve been consciously choosing to sit across from her.

Sitting face to face makes conversation harder, so we speak less.

Even after finishing our meal, where we used to talk a lot, now the conversation is scarce.

It seems I’m quite conscious of her words from that time.

On the other hand, Kokoro-san (Hatsune Kokoro) hasn’t changed much since then. She’s still fidgety with her movements and gaze.

No major change probably means she meant “I’ll help you forget (as a friend).”

So, there’s no need to ask about the true meaning of those words.

If I do ask, she might say, “I didn’t mean anything strange by it. You’re being creepy…”

But Kokoro-san (Hatsune Kokoro) would never say that.

She’d probably just laugh. Not mockingly, but genuinely smile. Hikaru (Takamiya Hikaru) would probably mock me, though.

As I agonize over this, Kokoro-san (Hatsune Kokoro), who finished eating first, wipes her mouth neatly and then looks at me.

“What is it? Why are you looking at me? Is there something on my face? I wish there was something. Otherwise, why would she look at me like that?”

“Have you started to dislike me?” she asks with eyes looking a bit sad but desperately trying to suppress her emotions, and her trembling lips throw unexpected words at me.

“Eh, what?”

Words I never expected left me uttering a strange sound.

What do you mean by that?

I found myself with my mouth agape. Realizing it, I hurriedly closed it.

As I did, I swallowed the taste of the omelet rice that had lingered in my mouth.

“It’s just that, recently, I’ve felt a bit of distance… like, you’ve stopped sitting next to me…”

Ah, I see.

It’s no wonder she feels that way. Indeed, there has been more distance than before.

But the reason is entirely different from what Kokoro-san imagines.

It’s not that I dislike her and want to keep my distance. It’s just… out of bashfulness, I’ve been avoiding her.

But from Kokoro-san’s perspective, she might think I dislike her. Or rather, that’s likely what she’d think.

I’ve been so self-centered, not considering Kokoro-san’s feelings. How awful of me. I’ve hurt her.

“I’m sorry, it’s not like that. Indeed, I have been avoiding sitting next to you. But it’s not because I dislike you. It’s just… out of embarrassment.”

Hearing just the word ’embarrassment’, Kokoro-san, who must have guessed the cause, bowed her head.

“I’m sorry for saying that…”

“No, no…! I’m… I’m grateful to you.”

This is bad, my heart is pounding loudly. Kokoro-san can speak normally, but I’m slipping into ‘Kokoro language’.

“It’s presumptuous of me to think I could make you forget…”

“That’s not true. You’re a wonderful person, Kokoro-san.”

I managed to say that clearly.

Kokoro-san belittles herself too much.

I want her to know that she’s amazing, wonderful, and should be confident.

“So… so embarrassing…!”

Recalling my earnest plea, I now feel embarrassed.

Both of us blushing, after a brief pause, Kokoro-san starts speaking again.

“You don’t have to answer if you don’t want to, but… what happened after that?”

After that. The meaning of those words was clear without being spoken. Last week, or rather, the week before last.

The last time I saw Hikaru was that day.

I had been with Kokoro-san during the day. But then, as we were about to have dinner, I received a LINE message from Enji, and then…

I was filled with regret.

At that time, I was so desperate that I didn’t feel as guilty as I do now, but having her bring it up directly…

“I’m really sorry about that time. I left you alone, Kokoro-san.”

“No, it’s okay. If Kakeru-san is troubled by something, I want to be of help.”

What a good person she is…

How did I get to be friends with someone like her? Other men might get jealous and someday come after my life.

“Your ex… right?”

My heart skipped a beat.

The word “ex” did that.

Kokoro-san isn’t dense, and I thought she might have realized.

“Originally, I started using the app to forget her. It’s been a year since we broke up, and I couldn’t get over her. It was painful.”

“…”

Kokoro-san silently, just stared at me intently, listening. I alternated between looking and not looking at her, honestly wanting to turn away.

I’ve rarely spoken my true feelings in my life.

I find it hard to show my true self.

It’s embarrassing. Maybe, in the true sense, I’m as shy as Kokoro-san.

But Hikaru was someone with whom I could be myself.

Enji was the same, but unusually for me, spending long periods with them wasn’t too painful.

And the same goes for Kokoro-san.

I behave differently with Kokoro-san than usual.

Gentle, warm, mild.

Because Kokoro-san has that kind of atmosphere, I make an effort to match it and act in such a way.

In my usual interactions with Hikaru (Takamiya Hikaru) and Enji (Ichinose Enji), my language can be a bit rough, which might scare Kokoro-san (Hatsune Kokoro).

But when I’m with Kokoro-san, I feel at ease and don’t need to be on my guard. This is also a part of who I am.

“But now, I think I don’t need to force myself to forget. Sure, we broke up once, but it was over something trivial. It’s not like our relationship was completely ruined.”

“So, do you want to get back with your ex, Kakeru-san?”

“I’m still not sure. It was hard when I was trying to forget her. But now, my days are enjoyable. It’s not just because of her, but also my friends, Kokoro-san, and various other things that make it fun. I don’t necessarily think I want to get back together with her… It’s just that I don’t want to cut ties with her, I just want to stay together. Within that, I hope to understand my true feelings.”

I feel this isn’t like me.

I’ve never been one to spill my true feelings to others, so I consciously stop myself from saying too much.

“…So, you’re unsure about your feelings for your ex right now, and at least you don’t want to be apart, you just need time to think?”

“Yes, that’s right. It’s not like I’ve talked about this with her; it’s just something I’ve been thinking about on my own…”

“Doesn’t it bother you, being so unsure?”

It does bother me.

I wonder how I should face Hikaru next time, how I should behave.

Probably, nothing will change, but I’m still troubled and bothered.

The cause of this unease involves Kokoro-san too…

“Yes, it does… yes.”

“Kakeru-san, you’re my first friend… and a very important person to me…”

Oh…? What’s with Kokoro-san’s reaction…? She was talking normally until now, but suddenly her face turns red.

And her “s” is turning into “sh.”

“Thank you, very much…”

“If Kakeru-san is troubled, suffering, or worried, I want to be of help. It might be something small that I can do, but I still want Kakeru-san to be happy.”

Looking straight into her sincere eyes makes me feel shy. But it would be insincere to run away from Kokoro-san’s feelings when she’s trying so hard.

Listen carefully.

Kokoro-san seems to have something more to say, so I’ll wait for her words.

Not while looking at my phone. It’s not okay to look down at the desk because I’m too shy to meet her eyes.

Look properly into her eyes and listen.

“As Kakeru-san’s friend, I want to help you be happy. Am I not good enough for that…?”

She tilts her head, her eyes slightly teary.

This is… really cute.

“You’re more than good enough. Kokoro-san, you’re one of the few people I feel comfortable with.”

“Then, please don’t avoid me anymore, okay?”

“Uh, sorry…”

Was that declaration really just as friends?

I’m overthinking it and acting silly.

“Then, let’s start the ‘Make Kakeru-san Smile’ operation!”

“A big operation…?”

Kokoro-san says this with a face turning red.

Kokoro-san, who had been intermittently checking her phone, probably wasn’t preparing a script to talk smoothly. It seems that wasn’t the case.

She shows me her phone.

“There’s a campaign going on right now…!”

“A campaign…?”

The screen displays an event for Connect.

Kokoro-san’s hands are shaking so much I can hardly read it.

There’s a theme park-like photo at the top of the screen, and beneath it, a big banner reads ‘Date Spot Discount Campaign!’

I can read up to that point, but the text below is too small, and the shaking screen makes it unreadable.

“Ah, so-sorry! My hands are shaking so much I can’t read it! Sorry, let me read it for you!”

“Before that, how about taking a deep breath?”

The awkwardness with Kokoro-san from this morning feels like a lie now. It’s all gone.

Now it’s back to normal.

Kokoro-san is panicking, and I’m calming her down.

Right. This feels comfortable.

“Okay, let’s breathe in…”

“Yes… inhale…”

“Inhale… inhale…”

I saw a look in her eyes as if to say, “Eh, you’re still breathing!?”

“Su… Su…”

“Just one last time before we go…”

With that, Kokoro-san stopped breathing in and held her breath, preparing to release all the oxygen she had gathered to its limit.

“Inhale!”

“Su, wha-fooーー!”

“Ahahaha, you took a big breath, didn’t you?”

“Hey, Kakeru-san! …Fufu, ahaha.”

That’s right, this feeling.

It’s best when Kokoro-san and I are laughing together like this.

After all, we’re just friends.

That’s what I kept telling myself, unable to shake the feeling.

“So, if people matched on Connect go to this dating spot, they get a discount?”

“Yes! It’s easy to prove, just show your screen a bit, and the discount amount is incredible. I thought… maybe I could entertain Kakeru-san, so why don’t we go together…?”

An invitation from Kokoro-san, uncharacteristic of her, premised on entertaining.

Is she very confident, or is she putting pressure on herself to raise her morale?

After Kokoro-san mentioned it, I opened Connect on my smartphone too. The discount wasn’t just incredible; it was almost free in some places.

The dating spots must be getting money from Connect, and Connect is advertising this to increase its membership. It’s a brilliant idea with a definite demand.

“Let’s definitely go. This is amazing. Even USG is included,” I said.

“That’s right! But, there’s a place I want to go if Kakeru-san is okay with it…”

“Where is it?”

“This place, but… maybe it’s not good? I thought men might not really want to go to places like this.”

“Is that so? I actually quite like it.”

“Really! Then, I want to go together!”

Kokoro-san brought her palms together in front of her face, her smile brightening instantly. She really wanted to go there.

No, with Kokoro-san, it might be more likely that she’s dreamed of going to this place, often seen in shoujo manga, than just wanting to visit this location.

So, we made a promise to meet at the site on Saturday noon this weekend.

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I Reunited with my Ex-Girlfriend on a Dating App

I Reunited with my Ex-Girlfriend on a Dating App

I Reunited with my Ex-Girlfriend on a Dating App, マッチングアプリで元恋人と再会した。, 在交友軟體上與前任重逢了。
Score 9
Status: Ongoing Type: Author: Artist: Released: 2022 Native Language: Japanese
No matter what happens, they are still attracted to each other!The newest student romcom connected thanks to a dating app!A friend recommended me a dating app. However, the person I met was actually my own ex-girlfriend, Takamiya Hikari!And what’s even weirder is that I was also matched with a beautiful girl from the same university as me, Hatsune Shin!Who should I date?With my old love or with my new love?

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